This month has been one of the worst times of my life, with heart break death, drama, car accidents, etc. Right now what I need is my sister and my brothers. I want to just hug my sister right now, and have my brother hug me and tell me everything is going to be ok. As of now there is a void this is the longest period since I met my birth family in person I have gone with out seeing them, and I miss them terribly. Im going to fix that though, shorty I'm going up to see them, but what I'm searching for is the reason my birth dad wont talk to me and doesnt want to meet me. The subject is bugging me more and more everytime I think about it. I didnt want to meet him before but now something just wants to. Its like a match just lighted inside of me and I gained the inspiration and the courage to meet him. A part of me I hope will feel complete if I do, many ppl have encourage me to meet him, but some have told me never to. I'm caught in this void of truth and lies and I want the truth, is it ok to meet him or should I forget he ever existed and go on with my life.
I believe people do change over time, for better or worse, for him I believe he has changed some for the better. He has to kids and even a little baby now there has to be some good in him to want to raise a kid this time around. I love family and maybe meeting him will give me the closure I need to understand everything that has gone on in my life, and why things are this way. Why I am sweet, adorable, but at the same time can be a bitch tell you how it is, and very manipulative. Questions I have need to be answered, so this is my decision after writing this I have decided to set up a meeting with Catholic Social Services to meet him, if it goes badly then that answers questions, same for if it goes well. For every question I will be give an answer in some form.
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